Where I’m headed

Nearly two months ago I wrote Where I’ve Been and admitted that I was struggling not only with my fibromyalgia but also with my anxiety disorder.

Summer break is now here and while I’ve been able to get the rest I need, I’m still exhausted, both mentally and physically.

So, it was time to write about what the next steps are for me.

I have taken a break again from designing. I recently did a couple of designs for a yarn company and those will be out later this year, I’m sure. But that showed me that it has become really difficult for me to do this anymore. Unless the project is a super easy one that I can do in a short amount of time, I likely won’t be taking on any new work. The other eye opening situation was that crocheting even just an hour would cause my hands to cramp up severely. I have been knitting recently and I don’t have the same issues there, something about the movement of the hands, I’m sure. So, still playing with yarn, just in a different way.

I’ve already alerted my current clients, but I’m taking an indefinite hiatus from tech editing. I do not trust my brain to do what it needs to do in that arena and I won’t be responsible for messing up another designer’s work because of that. It’s hard, and I feel like I’m letting people down, but I had to do it for me.

Right now I’m not sure what the future holds. I’m taking things day by day, some days minute by minute. I’m working at taking care of me as well as my family.

I do so appreciate all the warm thoughts and prayers. They mean more to me than I can express. Hopefully I can keep updating this blog with posts about my spinning and knitting adventures (and they definitely are adventures, let me tell you).